confidence: shaken, not stirred

i'd like to say i was stricken by a desire to write from something profound, such as a book or a lecture; however, this was not the case this evening. it was a television show that i had heard about, but not yet watched. for some reason, i found the premise of a particular episode, eerily relevant... first the show, then the eerily relevant subtext that caused me to finally sit down and write...

the show, love monkey, has essentially the same premise as the movie brown sugar. record label ex leaves the corporate structure for an indie label... "for the music"... sounds alturistic and all, right? well, mix in an entourage-like group of friends. each fairly established in his respective career... all taking place in the greatest city on earth... sounds a little cheesy, but it's actually intelligently written (in my humble opinion)... i caught a few episodes, and think it may be added to my dvr list.

the particular episode, that caused me to blog dealt with a character's confidence, his swagger... when you have it, you know... and what's more, other's know. it could be something small... such as the way you wear your hat, or your style of clothes... it may even be more subtle, such as one's mere presence; you notice them in a room.

typically, i would consider myself confident... and from what i am told, it comes out in my activities... even when i don't realize it... for instance, i have been told that it comes out when i play softball & run the bases... or when i'm playing football in my league. there are some days when i feel that confidence... i walk a little more upright, and feel a little taller. all that being said... recently, the confidence was shaken... didn't get a response i wanted from an institution of higher learning...