it's like birth...

although this child was no consummated in a woman's womb for 9 months before it's delivery... as a matter of fact, no woman, or test tube, was necessary for this birth... the only tools required were my fountain pen, a yellow legal pad, and a ton of ink... it's been weeks since the first drop of ink stained the yellow pad, and even before that, lots of ruminating about the process before birth was even a viable option. at that time, it was difficult to fathom the process being as long and drawn out as it was. i was talking to my father during the process, and he felt that it should be a cinch... however, being armed with too much knowledge could be more dangerous than not being armed with enough... although i much prefer the aforementioned to the latter... that by no means made my task simple, particularly since there were specific guidelines as to what the statement should be...

my first crack at it has been drastically altered... and i feel as if i've delivered a premie, for it is not completely out of the woods yet. although it is at a state where it is functioning. as this very moment, some of the best minds that i could conjure are giving their diagnoses of what it's gonna take to get past the premie stage. in a weird way, i actually feel kinda vulnerable by allowing others to preview the premie, but that's what's it's gonna take to get it to where it needs to be. as my "committee" makes their assessment, i figured i'd steal a few moments to jot down a couple of thoughts...

now, as with any newborn, it is calling me... i feel as if i must tend to it further...